-Catch The Bus (I always sat by myself. If someone did sit with me, I just took the window seat and didn't bother to acknowledge the presence next to me. I do this on Public Buses as well.)
-Go to school (I always really sat either off to the left side of the room and tried to keep away from other students as much as possible. Not sure if it was a teen-thing or a anti-social type deal.) I also always waited until after class to bombard my teachers with questions. They'd look at me dumbfounded wondering why I never raised my hand. Yeah I paid attention but I never really spoke.
-I went through my Sophmore Junior and Senior year virtually mute. During my Senior year a student approached me who I noticed was in my homeroom of the year before and he even told me, "You never spoke once in Homeroom." I honestly didn't, I also never stood during the pledge of alliegance (which I got sent the office for, multiple times)
-Did my homework and usually just came home and either A) Sat on my computer B) Slept or C) Ride my bike in my neighboorhood.
Yeah I had bullying issues (but who didn't) the only real bad case was when I was sick during my senior year and missed an entire semester so I had to make the class up in summer school in which I got punched in the face for being too quiet and I guess brainy. I had gotten ambushed when I went to walk home. Yeah there were witnesses, but I pleaded them not to speak a word of the assault. I just walked home and my mother threw a hissy fit when she saw my face was swollen and bruised. I tried to lie and say I fell down and hit the rock wall on the way home. But unfortunately (she took martial arts) and knew what a punch to the face looked like. So in short I am not sure what my triggers are Dak, it could be my family due to not speaking openly to them or my pent up school irritation that I held for everyone I loathed. Not to mention the amount of stress I went through when my grandparents passed on.
Also when I began Final Fantasy XI I was thrilled, it served as an outlet, an escape for me to use to keep outside world problems away. But my reality was more or less warped when I realized the game was just like real life itself, only pixelated, which is why I never got along with people in Linkshells. I also exhibited a very bitchy in-game persona which I came to regret since I ended up being hated on a variety of servers which is why I moved half the time. The server I am on now is very good, but my mood is like a ticking time bomb waiting to go off, I don't know when I will suddenly feel angry and just flip out on people around me. I want to learn how to control these outburst so I am not burning bridges left and right. Since I might snap on someone one day and it will be the wrong person and I might just end up six feet under or buried alive with concrete over the casket. In short, I've been playing XI with a small group of friends and now with Raydeus, I'm using him as a shoulder to cry on (which is bad) I know but he gives a lot of moral support where I need it the most.